AAINE K SAU TOOKDE: Part 1

1st March,2002

“I just gave you the taste of your own medicine, what did you expect, that you will use me against your father, for the life time? Do I look that much fool?” Rajveer said.

The listener was silent, she was trying to get the crux, her face was getting white,Raj looked at the face, for a while he felt bad, but today he was there to end everything, one cannot live with a pretender.” I don’t think that I would ever be able to love you wholeheartedly, it is good for both of us not to drag this thing any further.”

“Hmm..alright, goodbye..”, she left.Without a second look at him, she just left.Suddenly she felt free. The burden was removed from her heart, as if she was dying to get rid of him. He is not to be blamed.Possibly she was using him.After all, he was not her first love.

On the other hand ,Raj stood silent for a long time.That’s it? That’s all she had to say? Why didn’t she fight with him, why not a single protest ?Before telling those words, he was actually worried about her reactions, how much pain she will get?Won’t she be so much hurt?What will be the consequence?

Suddenly a burden occupied a large space in his heart.He still had the chance to appologise and get her back,but something inside him,stopped his steps.It was always known to Raj that a deep hurt was being nurtured in her heart for a long time.

When they met for the first time, she was fantacising about someone else,she was having a beautiful dream to make a beautiful life with someone.Her entire effort was being used to make a strong base only for their future .No other option was there for her.Raj was not in the scene.

When they met again, she was heartbroken. Every dream ,every wish was mutilated.Raj saw those eyes with extreme coldness and zero emotions.But not for a single moment she spoke anything ill about the person who overlooked her.Was it her hate or disgust for the man?Or she was  still in love with him?Raj doesn’t know the answer yet.

Eventually , they became together as much they could.Basically Raj didn’t expect much from this relation,evidently, expecting high was nothing but idiocy.But Raj was not unhappy. There were other girls in his life, but it is in the human nature , they want what they cannot get.

The coldness, the unexpressed grief and the suppressed pain of her started to pull Raj towards her.Neither she concealed anything about her past, nor she expressed her true feelings. She only stated facts.Very much raw and neutral.Neither she blamed anyone nor she regretted for anything.

Whenever he looked at her, he felt that she was staring at him.Raj didn’t mind at all,but her family, they didn’t like Raj.Her father never recognised him and was dead against the relation.Raj did not care when he knew very well that she was with him.Gradually , he felt that her hatred for her father was supreme.She took sadistic pleasure that her father cannot stand Raj’s presence in her life.In fact, she lost her first love ,mostly ,because of her father.

Every Time he felt that  a lethal serpent  was hibernating deep inside her, when the serpent will awake from the sleep, several lives have chances to get poisonous, provided the serpent  gets provoked.

Raj digested as much he could.But he was only human being.He could not take the fact that she was with him not because of love for him, there were some other reason.He sympathized with her as much he could.


He told her many time to patch the things up with her father.She used to say, “I don’t need to,whenever he will tell me to leave the house,I will leave..”

“One day you will leave me like that also?”..Raj asked with an apprehended mind.

“I will not..untill you leave me..that is a promise..”..she said smilingly.

Many time he saw her digesting the harsh words from her father, not even a single time she answered back.

People ,who digest everything without any complaint, get hurt at the highest level.When they begin to give back what they got, they are the most dangerous person.

Once her mother told that Raj won’t be able to adjust with her,it’s better for them not to meet anymore,she can be angry at times which can lead to destruction.Whenever she became angry and lost her calm, her mother regretted for giving birth to such a monster.

She also confessed that she restrains herself from showing temper because of her mother, she cannot see her mother’s tears.Raj tried to imagine several times that what can be the degree of that anger, for which a mother called her daughter a monster.

Whether he unleashed a monster today?

Her moving figure disappeared gradually,not for a single time she looked back.
“Naina.....”, he said under his breathe..

That night, Rajveer went to meet her, where he got to know that Naina had gone to Goa with her friends.For cross checking, he called her also, news was authentic.She was actually in Goa.

“Bitch..”..that was the only reaction.